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Update?

Fri, 25 Dec 2009 04:34:05 GMT

everyone.

So yeah, I basically disappeared for awhile. I lost my job, everything was cut off, and I got an eviction notice. Still no job but I managed to get some money out of my retirement fund and all my basic bills are up-to-date...at least till Jan. Needless to say, I haven't been in the greatest mindset. I pretty much abandoned 3FC, my blog, and YOUtube. I've been eating like crazy and not exercising. I'm trying so hard to get myself back on track. The whole job and bill situation, not being able to see my family for the holidays, and missing the birth of my BFF's baby is just weighing heavily on my mind.

I'm now trying my hardest to get out of this funk. Wiping everything clean. I've decided to change my WIs to Thursday (my birthday is on Thursday this year) so I weighed in today at 262.6 which isn't that bad considering what and how much I've ate the last couple of weeks. I'm also going to start the 100 Pushup, 200 Situp, and 200 Squat challenges.

I've been putting in job applications everyday. I've also decided to go to school....if I can get some financial aid. Hopefully I can and I can start in March. I need some direction in my life. Right now, I'm adrift in dark, unchartered waters. I don't know what I want anymore. Life was so much simpler when I was 6.

I need a good paying job that can bridge the gap until I can get back into the VA. It looks like I'm going back to the call centers. That shall be loads of fun but you can't laugh at the money.

My head is a jumble of thoughts so I'm going to watch the Simpsons and wash dishes.

Merry Christmas!

What I thought...

Thu, 03 Dec 2009 01:50:40 GMT

Your Strength: Optimism. Your Weakness: Laziness.

You are simply joyful. You take pleasure in the simplest things, and as a result, people love to be around you.
You are a very natural person. You find it easy to express yourself, and you love to entertain people.

You refuse to see the darker side of life, and as a result, you can be a little irresponsible. It's hard for you to face reality.
You love all the beautiful things and people in the world, but you can also be a bit superficial. Sometimes your vanity gets the best of you.

What Are Your Strengths and Weaknesses?

Blogthings: Quizzes and Tests and Memes, Oh My!

Mama

Thu, 03 Dec 2009 00:10:58 GMT

Only Mama can make a horrible situation seem like a minor annoyance.

I could lose everything and yet I feel ok about it right now.

Mama magic.

I hope I grow up to be like her.

The queen of the universe, common sense, and sneaky compliments.

Well...

Tue, 01 Dec 2009 22:27:39 GMT

at least it's here on time this month.

>.<

Remember....

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 02:17:42 GMT

Beauty is not based on how attractive we are to everybody else, but how attractive we are to ourselves, for one cannot think other people think they are full of beauty, unless they know they are beautiful too.
~ Unknown

1 + 6c * 98 = -3xyz

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 05:23:05 GMT

My life, like math, is confusing and nerve wracking.

I don't know who I am.

I don't know what I want.

I have no drive, no ambition.

I deliberately screw myself over in every aspect of my life.

I tell myself I'm afraid of failure, yet I encourage it.

Truth:

I'm afraid to succeed.

I'm afraid of the unknown, of taking chances, of being truly happy.

I'm afraid of people knowing who I am.

Knowing the real Shari.

Nobody knows her.

I don't think she deserves to be known.

I'm going to be a daddy.

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 19:36:32 GMT

At least, that's what Nik says.

I was telling her about wanting a baby and she says that I have her baby, Little Nicky. Which is kinda true, being an honorary second mother/aunt, but they live in Alabama, I'm in Texas.

She was watching Maury, cracking me up with her baby mama impressions when she turned to her mother and informed her that I was going to be her baby's daddy and said that I was going to fill out the father part of the birth certificate. I agreed and almost died laughing as her mother started screeching about us screwing up the baby.

I think we actually might try to do that, just to see the look on the hospital staff's faces and to give her mother a heart attack.

Done already...

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 01:35:05 GMT

I'm so over this job. I'm actually smiling cause I have no loyalty towards this company and have no second thoughts of quitting. I just need to find another job ASAP.

I signed up to do billing, not billing, technical support, AND sales. And definitely not all that for just $8.50 an hour.

Any man who tells his pregnant wife, who is on her way to the hospital so she doesn't miscarriage, that she looks like shit deserves to be shot.

I'm probably going to have to break my lease and move somewhere else. Oh well.

I feel really.....free right now. Happy. Please let this continue!

Bitchin'

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 02:16:41 GMT

First off, thanks for all the comments last post!

I love you guys!

Now, on to my whining :

Sir, if you are rushing to catch a flight, why would you call customer service to pay your bill? Hmm? Really, does that make any fucking sense?! Then get pissy at me when we are only 3 mins and 27 secs into the call about it taking too long. Your dumb ass should have called earlier! THEN you asked for a supervisor? Seriously? KNOWING that it would take even longer for me to get one then it would for me to process the damn payment! Jerkwad.

Ma'am, having me explain the same charges six different times isn't going to change them. Just sayin.

1 month, just 1 month.

Pullo is sick.

He's been throwing up and pooping all over the house. So now my apartment smells like vinegar from me trying to get the stains out of the carpet. Fantastic.

I'm caught up with Xanga posts, on to YOUtube.

Fatass!

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 02:23:22 GMT

Only I can gain 4.8 lbs in one week!

Okay, that's a little dramatic. But I'm so pissed at myself.

TOM was here but I will not use that as a excuse. Maybe if it was only like 2 lbs, I could. But 4.8?! No, missy, that was all the crap you shoved down your throat. Missing my friends and getting depressed didn't help the binge either.

It's a new week. And you can bet money I'll be busting my ass so the scale can go back in the right direction!